Thick crust cheesecake.

I love cheesecake!! Every once in a while though, I'll order cheesecake and it'll come with this ridiculously thick graham cracker crust. The first couple bites I'll push all the way down through that crust and eat it too, but inevitably I end up just eating the cheesecake and not the crust. I'm usually annoyed or disappointed that the wasted valuable cheesecake space with that stupid crust.

So that's my analogy for where I am the last couple days. On Sunday we became first time grandparents and that little girl is amazing and beautiful and squishy and we just love her so much!! All this overflowing joy and love going on in my life right now I can't even handle it! I was blessed to be able to be in the room and encourage my daughter through the labor and delivery of this sweet little girl. It was incredible and my daughter did so well with all of it. That's the cheesecake.

However, I find myself greatly annoyed that under all of that, there's still this dark swirling abyss grabbing at my ankles trying to pull me back in, reminding me that it's still there. I keep just trying to ignore it. When the tugs come I focus on that new granddaughter and what a light she is. More than anything though I'm angry that it's even there trying to muddy this joy. That's the thick crust.

Doing my best to be thankful for the cheesecake, and ignore the thick crust.