Moving Forward

I had a bit of an epiphany this morning as I was picking up my Starbucks before heading to IOT. I feel like I'm standing still, and part of my standing still is because I'm not processing through all the things in my head. IOT is not the place to do this. I believe that the usefulness of IOT, for me, has run it's course, and I do see value in it and will continue to use the coping skills I learned through it. So after talking with Jerry to make sure I was thinking logically and not just emotionally, I decided that I am done with IOT. I have a lot of peace in this, almost as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, like I can finally move forward.

I discussed this with the gal that runs my IOT and she said that she felt comfortable with my decision. I have completed 6 sessions and she's seen progress and knowing that I already have a psychologist that I'm working with she's confident that I'll be okay.

I already have an appointment with Dan, my psychologist, on Tuesday and I'm anxious to start working through this. I will say that my perspective of depression and anxiety in my life has changed. This time is different than any other episode I've had, I want to try to understand why. Reality acceptance is a skill they teach in IOT, and I'm okay with that, I just want to understand this reality a little better, learn how to effectively live in it.