“Life is like a box of crayons. Most people are the 8-color boxes, but what you’re really looking for are the 64-color boxes with the sharpeners on the back. I fancy myself to be a 64-color box, though I’ve got a few missing. I have a bit of a problem, though, in that I can only meet the 8-color boxes. Does anyone else have that problem? I mean, there are so many different colors of life, of feeling, of articulation… so when I meet someone who’s an 8-color type… I’m like, “hey girl, magenta!” and she’s like, “oh, you mean purple!” and she goes off on her purple thing, and I’m like, “no – I want magenta!”
In my mind, I imagine that those people that live in the 8 color boxes lead simple, uncomplicated lives. They think very logically and linear, maybe they know about the bigger boxes of crayons, but don't feel they're missing out on anything with their 8 colors. Sometimes I envy those people
I am not an 8 color box, and although I do love the 64 color box with the sharpener on the back, I always feel like there should be more. There is the 152 ultimate color collection which includes the glitter and metallic colors and comes in an awesome spinning caddy. All the colors for all the moods and feelings, for the ones you can put words to and the ones that you can't. For the words that you share freely and the ones you can't bring yourself to speak out loud. This is the life I live. I world full of color.
The interesting thing about any box of crayons, the 8 colors or the 152 colors, there are bright colors and there are dark colors. You can't color a complete true picture if you don't use blacks and browns and dark blues and purples. It will lack depth and balance and truth.
Which brings me to the purpose of this blog, I am once again traveling in the darkness, however this time I feel the need to color my picture with words. My hope is that getting it out of my head and on to the page will not only free up space in my head, but help me see the full picture that I am coloring. I believe that the many times before that I have found my self here I have only seen small snippets of it, I want to see the whole glorious thing. Mind you, I'm probably going to start out using mostly dark colors, but my hope is that as I figure this out, the bright colors will come out to help the balance of it all.
I invite you to join me on this journey if you would like, to invite others along, and to comment. Keep in mind my intent with this blog is to be real, and transparent and raw. Some of what I say here may be uncomfortable, may not make any sense to you at all, but how can I color the whole picture if I keep things hidden?
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