A Glimmer

Today was a good day. My usual get out of bed fight was the same, deciding what to wear was a bit easier since all but 1 pair of my jeans was in the washing machine. Luckily, they were my fun painted jeans which always brings me joy, who doesn't love wearing art?

Today was different, and it took me a while to figure out why it was different. Today I worked at Queen Bee Artisan Market, it was a very slow day, I think I can count our customers on 1 hand. So I got to spend the day with 2 other artists, people who "get" me. It was comfortable and safe with people I love, and people that love me. I worked on art pretty much all day long, the one thing that seems to work for me. It helped that my goal for today was to finish binding the journal I am making. I managed to finish all that I could at work today, which I feel really good about.

Tonight is different than usual too, usually I have the safety of Jerry in the evenings. A chance to decompress, to let down my guard and to let loose all that I've held in place all day. Tonight, Jerry is working, something that can't be helped or avoided. I'm working on trying to keep the anxiety at bay, keeping busy, trying to keep my thoughts from racing. It's a bit easier because today was easier, there isn't so much to let loose of.

Tomorrow is a new day, and with that new day it brings 3 hours of therapy which is hard and exhausting. What are the chances that I could have 2 better days in a row? Anything is possible, because God is good.